some updates about my life (or non-life i.e. death, depends on how you look at it): moved into hall! people here are so amazing finally feels like i'm making friends in uni haha. mostly hanging out with awesome mj seniors who are so fun and crazy to be with! also, new found freedommm; having the luxury of doing things i want and finally finally living my life. henceforth, revamped way of living as well. but NEED TO SAVE MORE MONEY. i am so broke from paying for dancetitude costumes and going for dance classes T.T (btw rie hata/d-blast lesson was DAMN SICK. swag max i need to work on my basics and bring foundation trainings to mj sat classes ~)
got twitter as well! feels like i'm introducing all these changes all of a sudden. maybe coz it feels like i need to leave who i was in the past and reinvent myself as a better person. keep on improving/get rid of all the negativity & find my optimism back. used to be so self-disciplined and driven, sigh. but anyways (: need to learn how to party hard and work hard from now on. 6 modules with two level 300 courses is no joke >.< on top of tuition and mj comm commitments... JIAYOU YOU CAN DO IT VAN this will be a valuable learning journey!
my mind is a runaway train of rambling, fleeting thoughts. talk about incoherence.
battling with loneliness and insecurity from time to time... but of course nobody sees that side of me. guilt? it overwhelms. right now my heart is a locked box of exploding emotions i don't even want to know what's inside. we'll just see how things go from here but there are certain mistakes and certain paths i don't want to go down again so....
i just want to get away.
