The Healing Power of Tears
For the raindrop, joy is in entering the river-
Unbearable pain becomes its own cure,
Travel far enough into sorrow, tears turn into sighing;
In this way we learn how water can die into air,
When, after heavy rain, the storm clouds disperse,
is it not that they’ve wept themselves clear to the end?
If you want to know the miracle, how wind can polish a mirror,
Look: the shining glass grows green in Spring.
It’s the rose’s unfolding, Ghalib, that creates the desire to see-
In every color and circumstance, may the eyes be open for what comes.

Ghalib
19th Century Indian Poet


mental-breakdown-day. honestly it's not only about the lunwen... i'm not so weak as to cry over something like that. it's just that. i seem to be losing control over so many things i value in my life. i lost love. i lost my best friend. i did stupid things along the way and fuck things up even more. and if that wasn't bad enough, i tried to control my health and my studies so as to wield some semblance of power over my life but that didn't work as well. feels like everyday i'm just precariously teetering on irrationality because in the snap of the fingers you could reduce me to tears... this post sounds so whiny why are you reading this?! my guy friends seem to frown on this display of weakness, jx keeps asking me to 振作起来, but it seems the more i try to be happy the worst a state i end up in when everything finally overwhelms does this make sense??

ok i am very disorientated now... it's probably just a phrase but it's making me incredibly terrified; 6 times within the past 6 days is too much even by my standards. i'll probably do something about it before i lose myself completely.

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jia hong: (: got it off charis's blog.
jonneo: x(( so you understand...