sorry, but just damn tired of all these bullshit. i just want to do my assignment in peace and sleep... or throw everything down and roam free.

the path of a leader can get so tiring and lonely at times... it's a thankless job and i don't expect to get anything in return but you give and you give and it's just frustrating sometimes, when the people you are fighting so hard to protect are the ones who are turning around to question you. easy comments are the worst kind i think. those who don't understand where you're coming from because they're not in that position but choose to pass judgement anyway. that's the easiest form of criticism nowadays. and coming from the people you expect support from, it's gotta be harsh.

spent a good half an hour crying at some corner at S3 after storming out of the reading room coz my patience level has already reached its fullest limit. also, think i'm gonna get hypertension soon at this rate. i get emotional wayyyyy too quickly for someone in my position. don't think this is very healthy for me.

grateful for the people who showed me so much love though. these are the people i will love with a fierce kind of determination.