an odd change of events, and everything happened so fast. it was as if i've been wandering in my own sahara desert for the longest time, hitting a really dry spell - when suddenly i found the oasis i've been searching for. and as i dove ahead to soak in the wonderful relief it brought, i discovered there was more and more sweet water from where it came from... i really thought i would never feel this way again. but i realized once the emotions start coming back, there's no stopping them. i love big, and that's just how i am. so right now when someone finally managed to knock back the high walls, the most intense emotions come with the highest level of wary and caution. underneath all those layers of cracked smiles, i am vulnerable and scared. and as much as i want to ride the waves and just set out to do what my heart tells me to, i can't. there are so many formidable forces stopping me from being happy the same way i used to be.
i don't want to make the same mistake again. or rather, i don't want to keep dating mistakes.
i don't want to make the same mistake again. or rather, i don't want to keep dating mistakes.
