browsing through my old posts to get inspiration for the interview tomorrow... but all i see are emo/angsty posts about you. in the past when i used to feel alone, there was always someone at the back of my head, someone who used to be there for me all the time and somehow gave me faith that no matter what. i used to have someone who really loved me and that was enough. now, these people turned out to have failed me, and i'm too jaded to pine for them anymore. so right now i can't decide whether i'm in a better position in life: alone, with no more optimism to be nostalgic or alone, with only happy memories to tide me through.


whatever it is, where i am now, it is a very lonely place.