old friends who used to mean the world but now don't give a damn. new friends, sympathetic, but too busy with other plans. friends who are good for a certain type of company but not this one. others, who may turn out to be amazing people to spend quiet time with but are too far removed to progress from acquaintances to actual friends. and the one person i badly want to spend this special moment with, i cannot.

new year's eve countdown might turn out to be a lonely affair after all.