the moment i found out, i couldn't stop myself from shaking all over. the world started to spin into a hazy daze and i had to seat myself down, make sure i was reading what i thought i was reading and sort myself out. but i couldn't. nothing made sense. the pain was incomprehensible; how could someone i love so much do something like that to me?

and that was when i realized: don't know when it started but whatever we had were all haphazardly put together with pathetic lies and blind, incongruent efforts. when that all shattered, what was left was nothing but an ugly, empty hole of nothingness.

nothing will be the same anymore.